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Gila. 4am suddenly blogging mojo visited, just in time when I was planning to get into the comfy bed.

Banyaknya junior get committed into a relationship. Envyness takes over again =| Anyway congratulations to any junior of mine that has been committed into a relationship recently and is reading this lame post.

1st week of STPM is rather nerve wrecking. Questions tested are mostly new patterns. Fyi, if you do past year Q's, there's a certain pattern, but hell they changed it all this year. GDI MPM! Arghghgh.

2nd week of STPM is far devastating compared to 1st week. Seriously FML. Physics is total gone case while Math T paper 2 caused me some breathing difficulties. Imagine the anxiety I'm going through. I even broke a pencil in half to release all the stress. Hell its the 1st time I'm going thru such shit. Awesome I shall say?

Ahhhhhh sleep. Goodnight.

Rage definitely blinds.

Taking a walk deep into the night.

Calm.

Thank You, 500 Days of Summer

How could I not believe in fate? Was frustrated yesterday night and while waiting for an e-mail, i surfed around to see whether there's any nice movies. Skyme damn efficient.. 500 days of summer out already. And there goes my night, the night that is supposed to be allocated for studies. =p

No regrets watching this movie, although I feel a lil guilty for not studying =s

Since me n her walked apart, my life doesnt seem to be bright anymore, at least I don't laugh much as I used to. Okay I know a lot of people claiming I'm very EMO, and yeah I don't deny that. But hello its not like I want to end up like that, sometimes life just gave me shit, and I have to accept it, whether I like or I don't like, so somehow I ended up channeling some of the shitness into my emotion (okay it sounds gross =3=).

Life is jus full of ups n downs. These roller coaster moments are what patches up life. Jus as my blog title suggests, Life is all but perfect. Life doesn't really revolves around myself only, guess I have to take people's (such as friends, families, and those who cared about me) feeling into consideration. Getting your heart broken by someone doesn't give you the privilege to break someone's else heart.

Okay back to 500 days of Summer. For those who got their hearts broke recently, this could be a nice therapy for you. Its hits u with a blast of romantic oxygen and it will take a part of you with it as the plot unravels.

I guess my Summer is gone. Throughout my trials, I am thinking of her from time to time. It somehow does affect my studies too. I keep kept messages sent by her, reading it when I felt like I wanted to, and I still being reluctant to remove her number from my friends and family list. Guess I'm still hoping for a miracle.

Its kinda dejavu as what I'm going through somehow resembles what happens in 500 days of Summer. All that is needed is fate, and everything just clicks. I wanted to go home after school at 1st, but when I drove past Klang Parade, I figured that I'd stop by n give my cousin who is working at Klang Parade a lift. Its about 30 minutes more till he finishes his job, so I loitered around. Met Elaine, Foong Yan & Hui Xian. Sat down for lunch and we started talking. Talk talk talk, talk till her there. They awkwardly told me that she got into a relationship with someone else already. I replied them with a smile. What they tell me just certify what I was assuming all this while.

What if I went straight back home? What if I was at another floor at the time I met them? What if I didn't watch 500 days of Summer yesterday night? Now, her messages are all deleted, her number is removed from my Friends & Family, and pictures deleted. There goes my Summer. I'm not angry nor pissed that she chose another 1 than me, as we're not meant for each other I guess. But FEAR NOT, when Summer is gone, Autumn will come. Who wants to be my Autumn? =P

ps:I'm not pissed nor angry over her being in a new relationship. Hope you are reading this. I want you to see how well I could be without you =p

ps:Attempting to be less EMO after this.

ps:Computer back to storage after this post. =\

ps:Fuck you STPM.

ps:Audition for my Autumn starts on 10th Dec, that is the last day of STPM w00ts haha

Devastating November

Who says junk food, chocolates or sweet stuff can make your day feel better?

Retail therapy doesn't seem to work for me. Guess it is meant for female specimen only =(

I'm all but devastated now.

Eating those freaking books make me skipping meals, but I still gain weight. Damn... eating books can be more fattening than food.

I dunno how much did I progressed already. Sometimes I felt like I progressed too slowly, but in the other end I felt like I've pushed myself to the limits. Anyway I will end my STPM course with regrets. I'm just an average guy that doesn't seem able to balance between my extra-curricular activities & studies.

Letting go doesn't sound as easy as being said. We hardly speak, at most its just saying Hi to each other, IF we could even meet. Tears started rolling down my cheek. I don't know whether its the fucking exam or Her. Got rejected silently is utterly heartbreaking. Walked in the rain today. Feels refreshing although it may look stupid.

Haven't speak to both my parents for a week already.

I don't know what I'm writing. 10th December you better come now. FML.

I'm like on the edge of my life, so do I look like i care about any hiatus I sworn before this?

hiatus

its goodbye once again lol. Going on a hiatus till december.. hope this time boleh endure haha.

So long~ =)

Fail. Lol

Endurance test faaaaaaail. here I am online-ing, playing bejeweled blitz =.=

so long... dunno what to update.

Happy belated Deepavali btw. =)

Endurance

Dunno how long I can last this time around. Packing my laptop in 3 hours time, that is 0000hours.

I have lost faith in myself too already, so no hope is on this attempt. If everything goes on with the plan, I should be back by 10th December (I seriously don't think I can tahan till then)

Frens leaving Malaysia... slowly 1 by 1. First it was Xinyi, then Charmaine, and now Victor.

A lot of 5S1 ex-schoolmates also leaving Malaysia. All I can say is good luck to everybody.=|

Lost my blogging mood. Byebye.

Recap... AGAIN

Damnit. Every holiday I need to do recap to mark down what the hell I've been into. I hardly can remember what I did since last thursday wtheck. Shud be no pictures again this time around.. Somehow i update this is also becos of YamMor Nicholas Lai. Kao Pei me no update blog =.=

Thursday

Finish the darn trial! Gaaaaaaah~ Hangout with QuanHe at night. Went to Osaka for snack and then starbucks and eventually ended up having supper at the western food stall nearby Osaka. 1 night trip around Klang. (ps:I didn't drink, Quan He drink nia. I need to emphasise here if not after some ppl @ USA will emo. I need to report before I'm able to consume Starbucks or any product related =[ )

Friday

Hangout with QuanHe again this time around. Had dinner + farewell supper with Charmaine at Bekerley corner. Crapped football n stuff with 2 gym freak & gym staff and balik at around 12. Go sight seeing Klang with Quan He after that. Purposely run go Arena a port klang to see ppl kick ball and back home at 2. Jus when I wanna sleep, Quan He nagged me to go send Charmaine together. Guess what, I took bath at 3am and fetch him at 330am from his house. Run go warnet watch drama until 630am.

Saturday

Technically watching drama shud be on saturday haha but who cares. Reach Charmaine's house at 7am. Tagged along ZhenYi's car to KLIA. Maine mummy belanja us McD as breakfast. And the saddest part has finally came. Everyone is sobbing jus when Charmaine is checking in. Awww... >.<

Went to 1Utama after that to celebrate PuiSan's birthday. Lol me n QuanHe is like half dead cos not enough sleep lol. The girls did what they are the best in - SHOPPING. They seem not to be tired walking thru whole 1Utama looking for clothes. Salute them for the stamina!

Reach home at 7pm like a dead fish. Dinner and sleep at 10pm. No watch football aso.

Sunday

woke up at 730am to go play basketball with schoolmate @ Setia Alam. Damn rusty dah the skill.

Breakfast-ed with mum at EngAnn and YiQian find me for lunch at Carrefour Kapar. Lol purposely run from Centro Klang to Carrefour for lunch. Watched Manchester United vs Manchester City together. Damn potong Steam. Say till Manchester United lose is god's will liddat. Ugh. Yea yea yea I know its controversial, dowanna elaborate much =(

Chelsea vs Tottenham's match is more intriguing. Tapao-ed siew mai and junk food before the match and tapao MORE siew mai during half time. The game is rather boring and in the end we're talking Pokemon. From Charizard to Darkrai, Ratata to Mew, its rather interesting.

Rooney not in the latest power-ranger jersey. Old picture.

Pokemon!

Monday

Sleep until 130pm. Selamat Hari Kedua Raya lol. After lunch, slacked with parents at Klang Parade for 4 hours! its FOUR freaking hours at Klang Parade! Personal record man. We compared TV at SenQ, tried mooncake and wondered around. Time flies lol. Went to Victor Chow's farewell party at night. Cheah was VERY VERY VERY sure of the way and in the end we nearly ended up at Holan but in the end we manage to get there. Thanks for the parteh Victor! =)

Tuesday

Futsal in the morning.Went to Tropicana City Mall after that with parents. Too new, not much shop is open. Change shopping location to Ikea after that and ended up dinner-ing at Jalan Imbi at night. Normal routine family day out =.=

Wednesday

Bad day. Got conned. Purposely go sunway for lunch and movie and back. No further elaboration argh...................................... Anyway night time is worth talking about. Had supper at Boston at night with Da Gang & Victor Chow who is leaving for Exeter this coming Saturday. Played Counter Strike after supper. The whole Cafe is full of 8 teenager's laughter. Shooting people is fun. Young teenage memories came back AGAIN (after the pokemon lol o.O)

Thursday

Leverage day. Sapu-ed 6 episode in a row. 3 more episode and I can tapao my drama mood for gawddamnwtfbbq STPM. "Where got ghost" with Da Gang at night. Mamak-ed till 230am only reach home.

Eliot the Hitman, Sophie the Grifter, Nate the Mastermind, Parker the Thief, Hardison the Hacker.

Will update Friday and Saturday after this.

A hole has appeared in my pocket =.=